Boob hurts today. It is healing, and little lightning bolts of pain keep striking near the incisions. It is rather strange.
Many of you know Robert, that crazy dude I work with. Today he sits at my desk and says "I'm looking for another job." And I say "WHY???" He says,
"Because if you are checking out, I am leaving." I told that crazy dude that I am NOT dying and not checking out--just another Mr. Sensitivity comment. I did have to laugh tho'...he is sooo not good with drama like death.
PK brought me a perfect book that I haven't started reading yet called "How to Live Between Office Visits". I swear to god that having this time away to just live is extremely scary. I figure if I am in the doctor's office I am not dead or dying, and if I was they would save me, but since I don't see the doctor for three weeks--egads...just think what could go wrong! That is why the book will be perfect. Pk, i admire your knowledge and appreciate all that you have done.
It was great to see co-workers and I luckily ran into Susan, a breast cancer survivor. When she was diagnosed long before I was I admired her so much for her bravery and her commitment to teaching. I still do admire her and she is, I am happy to say, cancer free! She sees my friend Dr. Ansari too, another reason to feel I am in good hands.
I also had someone post to the Rare Cancer Forum who is an ACC/breast survivor. She said she was going to read my blog. I can't tell you how happy that made me. This disease is so isolating and to know that there is someone else out there that I can talk made me giddy today! Her name is Kristina and I hope she comments so we can all pick her brain when needed. I also am emailing a newly diagnosed person name Valerie. For this being rare, there sure seems to be too many of us. But thank god for the internet.
Tonight my favorite ex-boss made us the best dinner. She said she didn't want me cooking on my first day back to work. (She was right--I was very tired) I have to get the recipe--it was chicken and stuffing, complimented with almond green beens, a sherbet salad and zuchinni bread. THEN, Lynn brought over this amazing looking fruit basket of cut fruit that looked just like flowers. This was from her and Jami and I can say I think I have eaten almost all the watermelon already! Like I said, I am amazed at all of you. And Heather, thanks for the mug. I will put my chai tea in it. (by the way Heather, why haven't you commented??)
Andrew is home and happy to be home. The last night in Maine all the teams got together and traded things--mainly t-shirts and hats. He came home with three hats--one from Hawaii, Venezeula, and Canada--plus, three t-shirts. He sent Michigan and Niles stuff all over the world. He is grumpy about having to miss two games for football but said he wouldn't have done anything differently. I am glad to have him home.
Lonnie, you should see me trying to use this IPod. Josh thought he would give me some good walking music so so far all Ican get is some Nelly...when he gets home tonight I will need a quick lesson! Everything is downloaded and not a minute too soon since the worries are never far behind...
Still coughing a little bit, but salivary glands aren't worrying me as much. Off to a board meeting--first of the year.
Love to you all!